Are you living the life you came to live?

This is a question that is ever on my mind ! Am I doing enough? Do I need to do more? Did I say the right thing? Did I say the wrong thing? And on and on and on, and there I am again locked once more on the treadmill of fear, afraid to move, and then I recall the words from the Eagles "you may lose and you may win but you will never be here again, don't let the sound of your own wheels make you crazy".

I know that the answer to all of the above is YES. YES. YES,  - SO WHAT!
 My Guru, Ram Dass, said "it is all grist for the mill," what ever I do or have done is all a part of my experience here on this planet and if I tune in it will help me grow into the being I came to be!

Many years ago I made a chart that hung at the foot of my bed that read - PAIN ---------- POWER
                                                                                                                      FEAR ---------- LOVE
When I am  lost in the  fear I am in pain; when I tune into the truth and love and appreciate who I am,  I am in my power. Now that seems like a no brainer. Why do I choose to go to the fear?

One answer may be that is familiar, it is a fear that I know, if I go with the love it will take me into uncharted territory. There is an Irish saying that speaks to that ,(the devil you know is better than the one you don't), so then I ask myself why does it need to be a devil and why does it need to be scary?  

The only sensible answer is IT DOESN'T!!

So how do we stay in the love?

For me the first step is Awareness, being ever awake and aware of what I am thinking, closely monitoring my thoughts and changing them before they pull me down into the abyss of fear and pain.

Yoga and Meditation  are the tools I use to help me stay balanced and attuned to the love and the wonder and the beauty of this time and this place.

Yoga does not have to be a complicated thing. It can be as simple as finding a quiet spot and becoming still for a while, practicing some deep breaths, allowing yourself to relax.

I quiet my mind by breathing deep and repeating a mantra, such as, "I am happy, healthy, wealthy, wise, all is well." I repeat this until the chattering stops and I feel the peace.

Writing this blog is a part of my yoga practice. Whenever I sit at the computer the fear is waiting to grab me, what if I do it wrong, what if no one wants to read what I write? what if I make a grammatical error?

FACE THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY!     

I invite you to join me in new adventures, whatever it is you fear know "YOU CAN DO IT" you can move through it and grow from it! YOU ARE POWERFUL  - YOU ARE A BLESSING TO THE WORLD. It is your life get on with it.

I share a poem I wrote January 1984

FEAR

It's not always here!
Sometimes I awaken in the morning and it's gone -
Then sometime midst the day,
It stealthily slips in !

Sometimes I catch it before it
settles in - and send it out

Sometimes I welcome it with open arms
and revel in it, cuddle with it,
hold it closely to me

It protects me when it's here,
I am paralyzed
being paralyzed is pain -
but movement may be more painful!

Stay here fear
I don't want to move!

Fortunately I have come a ways since then, now I want to keep moving in the direction of better and better.

Yoga YaYa is on the move. Will you go with me into a world of LOVE?